Anyways, I wanted to talk about streaming a bit, specifically some stuff about my channel and how I feel about the subject. You can find my channel here
I've been streaming off and on for over 5 years now. Started off in the Mega Man X speedrunning community, where I met a bunch of people I call friends now. I'm glad I started using Twitch and met some people I'm close with.
So, the stream update. Around January, I thought about stopping streaming. I was in the middle of playing Persona 5 and had just started Dark Souls. I thought, and shared with others, that after I finished those two games, I'd probably take a break from streaming, since I was feeling burned out, even though I wasn't streaming much.
Then something changed.
It wasn't that I was getting more views on the stream, which kind of happened after awhile, but it was that I was able to talk to people about what was going on after it. And I was finding myself just relaxed and laughing at myself again.
For a time, when things went on, I was getting frustrated more easily and I wasn't just laughing like I used to. I wasn't entertaining myself by making up bullshit songs or running a dumb stream of conscious sentence meant as a joke insult to the game. Writing about my Dark Souls experience has helped to. I've bene able to engage with these games outside of the stream and it's felt good.
For example, when I was playing Persona for a bit, it was whatever, but then one of my friends started watching, and he got hooked, and we went through this whole rollercoaster together. It made it fun as hell. We got to shit talk characters we hated, and talk about the wild shit that happened, both during stream and between them. In Dark Souls, I have people who are there to laugh at the dumb shit with me after they watch the vods or whatever. It's fun to be able to engage with your own idiocy. It makes the streams where nobody's there more enjoyable too, because it puts me in a mindset where I'm not just grinding away at the game, i'm not worried about anything else, I'm being dumb and stupid, and I stopped caring if my dumb stupidity was annoying someone.
So yeah, I'll try to freestyle a game-themed version of "Pretty Fly for a White Guy" as I run back to a section for the eights time, only to lose the rhyme after 2 bars. Yeah, I'll call a lovingly rendered cup a "Cup-ass cup" when i doesn't do anything, but looks out of the ordinary.
I'm having fun streaming again, even if it's just for me. Laughing at myself is my strongest strength, and it helped stave off that burnout I was feeling before. After Dark Souls, I plan on tackling Monster Hunter World fior a bit. Don't think I'll play that one through, but I want to play more of it. As for my other game, it's going to be Fire Emblem Warriors, because feeling like a minion destroying demigod will be fun. I'll sprinkle smaller games in as well, like Riven, maybe some Baba is You, and other puzzly games. We'll see.
Song to leave off on: "Gas Gas Gas" by Manuel
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